Hello you,

How has life been treating me you ask? Well, it’s been quite the turbulent rollercoaster and I can understand why people tell you healing isn’t linear, and I understand myself a whole lot better that I used to a year ago. Looking back, there could’ve been so many things I could’ve done differently but I come to a realisation that I wouldn’t change a single thing. I learnt a great deal about myself and what I allowed for so long, and what I need to stop allowing, think they call it boundaries. Such a foreign aspect to me to be quite honest… I can openly say that I’m still hurting but I have found pieces of me that I forgot existed, that was there all the time but just got suppressed.

I am so amazed when I think about how much my mother had pulled herself through hell and back, and it’s important that I don’t let her down. I am looking forward to the future in what that may entail for me, more travels, making new connections and revisiting estranged ones too.

There are a lot of things, people and moments that I cherish so much and revisit it in my mind but that’s as far as it can go. Even if people come back, we all know we are not the same person that we used to be. I’m praying that around the corner something wonderful comes my way, but I also remind myself that even if it doesn’t, I remain humble and grateful to everything that has been laid out for me.

Thank you mummy for everything and still being a guiding light in my life. I miss you so much. x