Hello you,

How has life been treating me you ask? Well, it’s been quite the turbulent rollercoaster and I can understand why people tell you healing isn’t linear, and I understand myself a whole lot better that I used to a year ago. Looking back, there could’ve been so many things I could’ve done differently but I come to a realisation that I wouldn’t change a single thing. I learnt a great deal about myself and what I allowed for so long, and what I need to stop allowing, think they call it boundaries. Such a foreign aspect to me to be quite honest… I can openly say that I’m still hurting but I have found pieces of me that I forgot existed, that was there all the time but just got suppressed.

I am so amazed when I think about how much my mother had pulled herself through hell and back, and it’s important that I don’t let her down. I am looking forward to the future in what that may entail for me, more travels, making new connections and revisiting estranged ones too.

There are a lot of things, people and moments that I cherish so much and revisit it in my mind but that’s as far as it can go. Even if people come back, we all know we are not the same person that we used to be. I’m praying that around the corner something wonderful comes my way, but I also remind myself that even if it doesn’t, I remain humble and grateful to everything that has been laid out for me.

Thank you mummy for everything and still being a guiding light in my life. I miss you so much. x

Enlightening, and really encapsulates the year that has passed by which initially felt like forever, but like everyone says.. you’ll blink and realise how much it changes you and believe in what comes around the corner.

Hi mummy,

We are inching closer to what would be your birthday.. and what a whirlwind the universe has taken us through, the void of your absence. It’s been tough and when we think we are getting better, we just get bogged down with the reality that it’s only been 6 months since you’ve left us.

I tell myself that you are with God, in the place that you deserve for all the patience and tolerance you put up with. We can only hope that we gave you back what you deserve with the love, attention and care. It hurts to think about you but I always tell myself to be happy and appreciate everything you provided me. I support my siblings to the best that I can.

There is so much I want to tell you, and hope you would only be nothing but proud and beam with pride. We are supporting each other to the best that we can and is always thinking about one another.

Your grandchildren are growing up fast and I’ll always tell them how proud you are of each and every one of them. You are always in our thoughts and we love you so much. The fight you struggled with will always be a reminder of how important we have to strive and achieve the best we can and make you proud.

Missing you immensely.

and just like that, we are here. An entire year has passed by.. what felt like eternity, I do look back at it with so much gratitude and thanks that I have been given so many wonderful opportunities, made new friends and truly be myself.

The healing process wasn’t the easiest but it gave me a new perspective on what I truly want to be. There is not a need to rush anything.. the universe provides and something is always around the corner

I miss you mummy, I think about you everyday.